Is this unconditional love ?

Should all relationships be mutual ?

Should all feelings be mutual?

Was almost a ’ Sowmya free’ day until I called at 6 and ruined it for both of us.

I was in pain, pain of hurt, pain of jealousy and pain from period.

I said words that hurt and I heard words that pierced thru my heart. I cried and hit back and he built a wall and split US.

About 6 months ago, my neighbor asked us if we wouldn’t mind sharing our Wi-Fi password. We decided to give it to him because it wouldn’t cost us anything extra, and because we got along with him. Yesterday, as I was getting out of the car, the neighbor was at his door, getting ready to come outside. I stopped to talk a bit as he held the door open. He happily told me he now had Netflix. At that, jokingly I said: ′′I work hard, I barely have time to watch TV, but, if you could lend us your password to watch some shows, we’d appreciate it “. A voice was heard in the distance, inside the house. It was his wife, ′′We can’t give the password to them, because I’m the one who pays the bill and I can’t share it.” The man apologized and I said it was no problem. We kept talking about other things, and as I left, he stayed working outside. When I happened to look outside a little while later, I noticed the man’s wife come outside. She seemed very nervous and upset. They both went into the house. After a few minutes, he and his wife came to my door to tell me the Wi-Fi password wasn’t working anymore. I looked at them and said, ′′ I changed my password, because it’s me paying the bill and I can’t share it “. The wife turned red and tried to say something, but I said, ′′Ma’am, I have my network and you have your Netflix, everything is fine and everyone is happy”. They turned around and left. They never spoke to me again.

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This story isn’t mine, but here’s the lesson I learned from it:

– Friendship must be mutual.

– Love must be mutual.

– Affection must be mutual.

In 2020 I intend to return

* backbiting with distance

* silence with silence

* absences with absences

* affection with affection

*friendship with friendship

*loyalty with loyalty.

copied from a friend’s wall

I heard today that every thing should be mutual.

I disagree.

There is a relationship, where I give everything I have and I can, because the person who I share the relationship with matters more than anything else.

There are feelings that I feel and share and not always do they get reciprocated. I still share them unashamedly, as I value this relationship and give it my all. The person means the world to me.

I said long ago, ” for now, for ever and for always” and I’m practicing it every day.

Does it hurt, yes, coz I care. Do I heal, yes, coz he cares more.

Does it hurt, yes, coz I expect. Do I heal, yes, coz he explodes my mind with his kindness.

Does it hurt, yes coz I’m jealous. Do I heal, yes, coz he will fill me with joy and surprise me.

Why kind of relationship is this?

Is this unconditional love ?

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